Wednesday night I used the William Stafford poem (the post below), "A Ritual to Read to Each Other," in a class in which I discussed some of the ways we get stuck in places we didn't intend to make home . . . we get lost holding the tails of the elephants before us . . . patterns others have made prevail in us . . . we follow the wrong god home and miss our star.
At the class I also offered a poem I had written earlier in the week as I considered Stafford's poem while reflecting on my own prodigal experience. Later, a friend referred to Stafford's poem as "the elephant poem" and to mine as "the pig poem." This is what I wrote:
At the time you followed
where they led
taking for yourself
the patterned life
they offered
You had no way of knowing
how stuck you
would become
in that far country
sucking pods
with pigs
and how much energy you'd need
to point yourself toward home
and how you'd have to leave pigs
littered alongside every homeward stretch of road
and how the dark and strenuous journey
back would become your life.
Hmmm. Elephants and pigs. awake or asleep. patterns.
ReplyDeleteIn that moment before sleep
It is myself that I chase
with hidden hope unrealized
putting on other to find self
push me pull me swallowing the trail
significance denied but sought
not smart enough or talented enough or
beautiful enough or witty enough yet
the hope that a secret grandeur resides
within sinks below the surface
and I skim across this placid self
the mirror to which I hear
glass pressed close eyes shut tight
it burns me